A journey of self-awareness and releasing what no longer serves me.
If you’ve been here with me before, you already know, I’m still figuring this life thing out. Still finding my place in a world that can feel so big and so lonely all at once. You’d think detaching from others would come easy, but the truth is, it’s always been hard for me. I’ve always craved connection. A bond. Something that felt safe and real.
For a long time, I would look for the good in everyone I met, holding on to the belief that connection mattered more than my own awareness. I let myself believe that if I just poured enough love into people, it would fix the cracks and make things right. But what I didn’t realize was that in my craving for connection, I was ignoring the whispers of my own heart.
It took me a long time to stop and ask myself: Why do I stay in spaces that don’t see me? Why do I hold on to people who treat me like an afterthought? Are there wounds here I haven’t healed?
I knew I deserved better … better from friends, family and relationships. I knew it in my spirit, yet I stayed. I stayed because I thought maybe they just didn’t know how to love the right way. Stayed because I thought patience would reveal their goodness. And maybe they were good people… just not good for me.
I learned, though. Anything you have to keep questioning isn’t meant for you. That constant ache of uncertainty, the need to rationalize their actions, that’s your soul trying to tell you something.
So, I’m learning to let go. I deserve the kind of love and friendship that doesn’t make me doubt myself. I’m learning that self-awareness isn’t a punishment; it’s a gift. One that teaches you how to choose yourself over the idea of someone else.
If you’re reading this, maybe you’re in the same space I was—holding on to what isn’t yours. If that’s the case, I hope you know this: It’s okay to release it. It’s okay to leave. You don’t have to explain yourself to anyone. The love you’re looking for starts with you — and it will grow stronger the moment you choose yourself.
You’re worth it. Trust me, the best is yet to come.
With love, until next time ✨
